News that makes you think

I was not going to share this information with the world, but I have now decided I am going to. Mainly because it has made me think about how fast life can change. This is the hardest blog I have had to write in a long time. I don't share a lot of personal info on here because I don't like people to pity me, but this is a big deal to me, and writing it down may help me process.

WARNING!!! If you are immature or cannot handle talking about a vagina in a non porno way stop reading now. It is about to get real and I don't mean real sexy!!

Ever since having the twins I have had some issues with my ladie parts. Mainly innapproiate bleeding during nakie time, and sometime just for fun i guess. I went to my normal doctor over a year ago and she put me back on birth control for three months. She thought maybe it was just out of whack hormones from having twins. The problem seamed to go away for a while.
Then a couple months ago it happened again. Out of no were my vaj decides to be innapproite, during nakie time...blahhhhh....

Let me tell you, not know if your vaj is going to be normal or bleed when it wants makes life so stressful. 1.I never wanna have nakie time, because it is embarrassing and weird and gross. 2. When it is not nakie time, it just sucks to bleed because your vaj hates you.

Well I went to my OBGYN Dr.Hardin, who I love!!! He has done a few tests and biopsy's and I can back with some Malignancy Neoplasm, which is a big word for cervical cancer. My Dr. thinks he can just remove the spots that test positive. We caught it at the very beginning. In all reality I should go in for my appointment, remove the bad parts and go on with my life.

I feel stupid for being so worked up about this because so many other people go thought so much more with cancer. I just have to have some of my cervix taken out. No chemo, no hair loss, no death, I have it fairly easy. It makes me feel bad for saying anything. I also have a hard time accepting other people worrying about me. I am one of thoes who like to just keep in it and roll with the punches. This is not healthy, I am stressed and that makes my Crohns act up. Getting it out is healthier in the long run.

I am sure everything will go fine and I will be fine. This has all made me realize how fast life can change and how important it is to live your life for you, not for everyone around you. It seams crazy to let this have such a huge impact on my life but it is. Going forward I am going to live life for me, I will no longer have time for drama or bullshit, and I mean it. I am going to do what makes me and my kids happy, end of story. I know this really isn't a big deal, but I could be or if I hadn't gone it really would be. Plus you never know what life will throw at you, and I never want to regret anything!!!

Weigh in #2

I decided I will have a hot dude pic with every weigh in, you can thank me later. lol

Ok here it is...measurements after a week of taking my new supplements. If you missed my first blog about my new routine you can find it here ----->http://lilbrulestheworldtheend.blogspot.com/2012/07/my-first-weigh-in.html

So I didn't change anything, except taking my new supplements and I have only been taking them on the mornings I work, so Monday - Thursday.

Weight 112lb
Belly Button 31 1/2"
Hips 32 1/4"
Thigh 19"

So I lost 3lb, but remember I am not in it for weight loss, just toning up. At my belly button I lost almost 1" and at my hips i lost 3/4".

I think that this is an awesome improvement and a safe improvement. i do not think it is healthy to loose a ton of inches and weight in one week. I think a gradual loss is way better than a fast extreme one. I am even more impressed that i didn't change anything about my routine. I didn't work out more or harder. I just drank my shakes!

Yippee so excited!!

My first weigh in!!!

First I wanna say your welcome for all the sexy boy pic..it just felt right...lol

Ok so here it is....I am taking supplements for the first time, and I am excited about it for the first time! I work out three times a week at least. I have been working very hard ever since having my twins to loose the baby weight. After having having the twins I knew I was having no more babies, three is plenty, so I wanted to get my body back.

I have a work out plan, one day is a quick mile like 8 minutes then legs, day two is a long run day anywhere from 3- 8 miles (just 8 for now...lol) day three is a quick run and then upper body. If I work out any other time than those three days it is usually a cardio day, like walking, running ect.

I feel like I have hit a platue, I am having a hard time getting rid of the final bit of my baby pooch. Plus having Crohns I do not get many nutrients and with all the calories I burn from running I think my body has a hard time building muscle because it uses the muscle to replace what I burn. I am hungry 24/7 because of how much I burn. Being hungry this much often leads to poor food choices...which put you two step back...blah...

So on Monday I started my new plan..here it is!! its nothing crazy and i will still be eating pizza and drinking beer!! lol

Everyday for breakfast I am going to drink a protein shake called High 5. It helps promote muscle recovery and strength. It also replaces a lot of the nutrients your body needs. with that I am mixing in D-Fine 8 which helps burn fat, give you energy, and control your appetite. Than I am also mixing in Max Liqui Carn, which is liquid carnitine. Carnitine is necessary for you body to metabolize fat. It just help you body burn the fat around your muscles and get you the cut look.

All that said..here are my measurements:

Weight 115lb (p.s this is not about weight loss mainly it is about getting that lean look)
Right under bust : 29 1/2"
@ belly button: 32 1/8"
@ hips: 32 3/4"
Thigh: 19"

Like I said this is not about loosing weight but more about getting rid of the pooch. I took some before pictures that I will share with some after pictures. I think I will weigh in every Monday.

I am super dooper excited!!! Oh and all the products I use can be found at Muscle Max. YEAH to working out and sexy boys!!!!!!!

What's in a name sex opperator edition

The other day at work I was working on my man voice..why I am not sure, but I do a lot of things that cannot be explained. I was saying "put on theis panties"  to all the boys in my best man voice. Well I descovered I do not have a great man voice, which is great news I guess. So I decided that I was gtoing to work on my sex phone opperator voice. Which lead me to decide I need a sex opperator name. While trying to come up with a name and asking others to help me come up with a name I realized how much the sound of your name matters, and can give people an idea about what u look like ect with out even seeing you.

Most the boys were giving me hooker / stripper names like cany, bambi, ect. I was explaining to them that a sex phone opperator name has to be sentual, sexy, exotic, you have to hear the name and want to get naked with that person. A sex opperator should say her name and it should give you the vison of the ultimate woman. Unfortunitaly she is probally 300lb and hasnt showered in a week, but her name says other wise. Sadly Brittany is not one of thoes names. It has to be a name that sounds like it could be a real name, only strippers and brad pitts kids have names like bambi.

Needless to say we never found a good name, well actually I had found a good name on a paint chip sample at home depo. But after a bottle of wine and painting my patio until midnight I forgot. I would love some input!!

HAHA as a side note...while searching for some images for I blog I found a ton of work from home sex opperator job....I am thinking YES!!!!!

Things I love

I have noticed in my life and a lot of my friends life there is a lot of negative going around, I think it is time for some positive!
I have written enough blogs about things I hate that it is time to write one about things I love. Theis things are the weird and quirky things that I love. It is the simple things in life that make me smile and can change my mood around.

1. The smell of lime or lemon on my fingers after squeezing one into water....or beer. If you ever go out to eat with me and I order anything that requires me to squeeze a lime or lemon you can bet I will be sniffing my fingers the rest the night. Some of my friends are so sweet that they let me sniff their fingers.....ok thats weird...lol

2. Thunder storms at night in the spring and summer. During the day thunder storms are ehhhh ok, but at night. When everything is dark and then there is a big flash of lighting, and loud thunder, and pouring rain. I prefer spring and summer because I can have my windows open.The smell of rain in the summer is so refreshing. I am sure somewhere in the back of my head I am one of those people who wants to have crazy passionate "relations" lol during a thunder storm.

3. Monarch butterflies they are so graceful and beautiful. We get them on our back patio a lot, and I love watching them fly. One day we found on that had just come out of its cocoon it was so neat, to get to hold it.

Ok that's my list for now...I have more but I have three kiddos who want some lunch.

Things I hate #3

This is list number three of things I hate...Hopefully it will be the last list. If you missed number one and two, I feel bad for you, but luck for you I will post the link right here
#1------->http://lilbrulestheworldtheend.blogspot.com/2012/04/all-things-i-hate.html
#2------->http://lilbrulestheworldtheend.blogspot.com/2012/05/everthing-i-hate-facebook-edition.html

So I only have a couple thing that I hate and will hate the rest of my life....I am starting to feel like I have a lot of things I hate. Hopefully my list of things I love is just as long.

1. Cold Chicken...There is nothing worse than cold chicken. Who eats cold chicken?? Not me. When ever we go to a restaurant and I order a salad I have to ask if the chicken comes warm. Today I was so surprised and happy, at lunch I found out Chick-fil-a actually has a salad with warm chicken. It is the chicken strip salad!! YIPPEE!!!

2. I hate warm lunch meat. Lady at subway "would u like that toasted"? Me "would you like me to barf"? When you heat lunch meat it get this weird slimy coating and it make me gag.....just thinking about it is making me want to vomit. Here is the craziest part of it all....I hate cold chicken, but I hate warm lunch meat....isn't it all the same?? I know I am a weirdo!

3. Roses@---- Dumbest fing flower on the planet!!! Why would you buy someone a flower that will make them bleed? Have you ever tried to prune roses? SO DUMB!! We had rose bushes at our house when we first moved in and I tried once for 2 seconds to prune them and take care of them. It took one prick from the thorn and I was chaining the bushes to an ATV and ripping them out of the ground! All you men out there, don't buy me roses... because I know there are so many of you out there dieing to buy me flowers, i thought you could use a hint!

Thank you for enjoying the list of things I hate. i am not a picky person, there are just a few things in life I will never understand or enjoy, the above being some of them.

Everthing I hate Facebook edition

We were have it everything I hate about Facebook, read it, love it, and remember it bc I WILL black list you!!!! Ok only kidding!

1. Requests to give you pigs, cows, coins, and other crap for you lame games...I do not play farmwhatever, I have a life. not that you dont, but maybe you need other extra-curricular activities. Like under water basket weaving, or model car building. If you haven't noticed your farm is not real and you cow will not die if I don't give you corn. STOP ASKING, it will never happen.

2. People who make post about other people, or about having a bad day, but they don't elaborate. If you say you are having a bad day or need prayers but wont tell why really annoys me. If you post this, it is no longer personal and you get 30 some posts asking what is wrong. What you really need is attention, stripper get lots of attention, just a thought.....
If you wanna talk about someone talk to them, don't make underhanded posts about people. This creates drama, but for thoes of you who feed on drama this is perfect! Keep it up!!!

3. Post that ask me to like in 2 seconds if I remember that movie, or love god, or hate cancer, or don't want to go to hell, or say they are donating money for every like. This drives me insane. Why do I have 2 seconds, like anyone one knows if it took you longer than two seconds. I am picturing all theis crazy people clicking like as fast as they can..Like oh I know that move hurry click like, yes 1 1/2 seconds I win!!!!! No one knows. Also, NO ONE is donating money to ANYTHING bc you like a post. I hate to burst your bubble but it just isnt happening. If you truly think it is happening then you have probably sent money to Nigeria and are waiting on your million dollar return. Heck if you are that gullible, you can send me money for every dollar you send me I will donate it to the save brittany from going crazy fund( I will be buying wine with it)..

I enjoy facebook to keep up with family and spy on people..lol I just hate a lot of it too!!

All things I hate

I have decided to compile a short list of things I hate / dislike / or annoy me.... hopefull I can keep it short! lol Then in a couple days I plan to write a blog on things that I love. This list isn't made up of right now intorerances like changing diapers, it is all about things that have bugged me forever and will until the day i die.

1. Automatic flushing toilets: Every time I use an automatic toilet I have a traumatic experience. I sit I pee, I reach for T.P and WHOOOSHOOO, it flushes and spackles my but with dirty toilet water. I don't know if my body isn't wide enough for the sensor or the toilet God hates me but it drives me nuts! Someone should invent a toilet with the sensor in the seat, then it wouldn't flush until you stand up, and by then you should be finished with your business and less likely to be assaulted by toilet water.

2. Ignorance: People who use racial / sexual / gender discriminating words. Like calling your friend a faggot when he does something stupid, or using words like nigger, or thinking women cant do what men can. I also hate when people have no tolerance for differences. While we were in Vegas we saw a girl and a Tranny hold hands and dressed the same. Some guys out side, made some mean comments, and looks of unnecessary looks. Who cares what they look like, they are having fun and they are happy. Live and let live.

3. Jumping Bugs: Crickets, Grasshoppers, ect... Theis kind of bugs are so unpredictable and I hate it. They can be three feet away, not facing you and the next thing you know they are jumping at you trying to bite and kill you. Oh I may be a little dramatic about this, but when a cricket jumps at me all I can see is this little black bullet, with long icky legs, and GIANT teeth ready to chew my leg off. I think the jumping bug of the world find it humorous when people scream and run like babie because they were attacked!

Wow only three things.....I think I will probably have another Blog about this. Sometimes I don't remember the things that annoy me until they happen. What annoys you???

My lame ass so called friends

I was never going to blog about this because I don't believe theis people deserve my time of day, but I am hurt and I continue to hurt...so here it is. My best friend Brandy dumped me because she cannot separate our friendship from my friendship with Jen, whom Brandy despises. We had been friends for three years and in those years I listened to her cry, bitch, and moan about how horrible her marriage was. Now that she and her husband are happy she has no time for my problems or for our friendship. She said she was jealous because Jen and I are so close, but Jen is the ONLY person who made an effort to remain my friend when I went back to work. So she dumped me, like texted me it was over and that she will be so sad with out me and Teagan in her life. I guess the twins don't matter. Then a week later she texted me saying I pushed her away and I ended our friendship. All I could think is she is CRAZY.
After she broke up with me I messaged our mutual friend telling them I have no hard feelings and hope they do not feel they need to choose a side. None of them responded making me feel like they already chose a side. I reached out to one and her response was "if you want to unfriend everyone and isolate your self that's your choice".  What a friendly response. I don't understand why women cannot move past the mean catty stage of high school. It is like all my so called friends turned into the stepford wives. Judgy, Mean, Backstabbing, and worst of all "pot calling the kettle black" women. They are one big click, just like the mean girls in high school. I no longer wanna be cool enough to be in that group. They are all older women who are trying way to hard and are way to mean to people. One of theis women even accused my friend Jen of using the death of her two best friends to get attention. Normal people don't say that shit, it is just mean, just plain mean. I DONT want to be associated with people that mean.
When Brandy dumped me four other people jumped on the band wagon and unfriended me as well. What bothers me the most is one of them, Wendy, would call me and make me feel like shit for not having enough time for everyone. She said I didn't hang out enough and i didn't see everyone enough, so I made a real effort to meet everyone needs. Then she just unfriends me like a coward sheep and doest say two words about it. it is so hard to balance a family, full time job, house work, and demanding friends. Expically demanding friends who never invite you out or make plans to see you, but require so much time of you.
I guess all I am trying to say is life changes friendships change, and instead of being demanding and judgy, work on the friendships you care about. Don't demand someone spends a certain amount of time with you, instead make the most of the time you have together. I am so thankful for everyone who has been there for me. You all mean the world to me!!!

Little Boys

No one prepares you for how silly, funny, disgusting, and sweet little boys can be. I swear every day Teagan makes me laugh, and want to cry all at the same time. I defiantly was not prepared for the things little boys do. Here is some of the things Teagan does that makes me so happy I have a little boy (ok some of the things creep me out, but they are sill fun).

1. He thinks his dewy is AMAZING and he is only three. At walmart the other day he was standing in the basket and leaning against it so his dewy was poking in between to bars. He thought it was so funny to poke it and laugh. i continued to push the cart like nothing was happening, but I couldn't stop laughing. He had pants on but it was still so weird, but oh so funny. After about five minutes of this I started steering the cart crazy so he couldn't get his dewy that close to the side of the cart. The other night while changing for bed he informed me that he had a big dewy. LOL

2. He says and does the silliest things. the other night he told me my belly button was full of pee and it smelled bad. Where does he come up with this crap. He also thinks it is funny to follow people around and smell their butts and say they stink. LOL It is very weird having him jam his nose in my butt when I don't expect it, thank goodness I don't walk around naked! LOL

3. Last but not least he is such a sweet heart. He is a tornado and a crazy boy most the time, but when you really get to know him he is so sweet and tender. Tonight was the first time he has sat through a whole movie, and it was so nice to snuggle and have popcorn. He warm my heart and everyday it just gets better. i told him thank you for watch a movie with me and he said love you mama..awwww. For those of you who don't know Teagan has a speech delay and he didn't say mom or mama right until about six months ago so him saying love you mama is one of the most magic things ever!

i know the girls will warm my heart just as much the older they get, but i think little boys have a different way of warming hearts.
Boys are amazing, silly, and so sweet. I am so blessed to have such a super little man in my life!!!

New boobs??? I think so!

Some of you may be asking why I would want to tell the world my "dirty little secret", but I don't think it is a dirty secret...yes that's right, i am getting new boobs, and I am not ashamed of it in the least. I feel like I am doing this for all the right reasons. I know to some it seams vain, but those of you who feel that way prolly have boobs, and have no idea what it is like to not have them. I also know I am doing this for the right reason and I am not ashamed. I feel like it is easier to just be honest and tell everyone upfront what I am doing instead of having people talking behind my back.  Here are the things that lead me to my decision.

1. I do not feel like a girl in the least, when I cant wear my AMAZING victory secret bra (you can read about it here....http://lilbrulestheworldtheend.blogspot.com/2011/06/itty-bitty-tittie-committee.html I have always been lacking in the boob department. I didn't even get bob when I was preggo, my boobs didn't work. I never made milk. i have always been small, and being athletic makes it even worse. When I wear my awesome bra I feel normal, but in a swim suit, or heaven forbid someone sees me naked and my confidence sinks.

2. my kids are old enough to not need picked up all the time, but not old enough to remember this. i NEVER want my girls to feel like they need bigger boobs because mom did. I think it sends the wrong message. I would rather them grow up thinking this is how i always looked. Watching me get new boob could make them insecure if they understood what was going on.

3. This decision is MINE and MINE alone. This is the most important thing. Getting something like this done should be for you and you alone. You should never do it for someone els. I have wanted this forever, but I have waited until I was done having kids, and until I was at a point in my life were I would get to big and crazy.

I am getting them done on March 29th, by Dr.Urban. I called EVERY plastic surgeon in the valley and his office is the only one that made me feel comfortable and asked me questions. Most offices just said the fee is .... when do you want your appointment. Dr. Urban staff asked me lots of questions and made me feel really good. I am so excited about this!!!!!
Like I said before this is a very personal decision, and a controversial decision. I welcome opinions, but please be nice, and take my feelings and reasons for doing this into consideration. YEAH BOOBIES!!!!!

I'm back bitches!!!

Well I have not been here in a VERY VERY long time, but after some consideration, and some major life events I decided to start blogging again!!!! YEAH! I know everyone is so excited they just peed a little..or maybe it was just me! lol

I have so many life updates, and exciting things that happen to me throughout out the day and I miss sharing / venting/ bitching / and some slightly drunk blogging!! you can ready my first drunk blog here....http://lilbrulestheworldtheend.blogspot.com/2011/04/drunkin-ramblings.html

I am excited to change it up a bit and get back to blogging, my goal is to blog at least once a week, maybe more, but once would be perfect! So much had happened since I blogged, I got my job, the kids stated daycare, plus all the crazy everyday things that happen to me at work..like shrink wrapping my friends car, being call Harry Potters wife, being told I am crack-a-luscious, and much more!!

I know not everyone will enjoy or agree with the things I say, but that is ok. My opinion is never going to please everyone, and I understand that. I just ask that you keep you comments, nice even if you disagree.

I hope you enjoy my new adventure into blogging and I cant wait to share with everyone!!!!!

My new job

As I sit on my couch eating pizza watching Desperate Housewives, I realize this is it. I start my new job tomorrow...ahhhh. Today we went to the kids new preschool and they got to check it out. The girls LOVED it. They played, had snack, and had so much fun. Teagan on the other hand not so excited, but I know he will get better after a couple times. We went to wal-mart and bought all the items needed for preschool. I am excited for the kids, and for me. I know organization is going to have to be me number one thing now. That being said I am now seeking advice from everyone on things I can do to stay organized. I was thinking a dry erase calender to write meals on. This way I can write down what we are having for dinner every night. This way I can get stuff ready the night before, and that morning. I am also thinking I should lay out outfits the night before, for me and the kids, that way I am not having to do it in the mornings. Does anyone els have another ideas. I am a little nervous that I don't have a few days to practice getting the kids up ect...Any ideas will help.
I am so excited to go to work!! i think this is going to good for both me and the kids, and it is perfect timing. The kids will only be in daycare 2 1/2 days a week. The rest of the time they will be with Chris. YEAH!!!!!!! I think I will have a celebration drink tonight!!!!

Hard Decisions = Big Changes

So in the last month I secretly applied for a job. I only told a few people mainly because I didn't want to have to tell people when I didn't get the job. I also didn't want to hear peoples opinions until I knew I had the job. Well they call this morning and I got the job. It is at the new American Furniture Warehouse, as their showroom floor designer. Basically you design the furniture displays. It is sorta what I went to school for. It pays $16.00 and hour and I would work 40 hours a week.
I am so torn on what to to. I love being home with my kids and the thought of missing things makes me want to cry, literally right now I am tearing up. They would only be in daycare 2-3 days a week. When Chris is on days off they would stay home with him.
Chis knew I was applying for the job, I think he just thought I wouldn't get it. He doesn't want me to take it for selfish reasons (this is not ment in a bad way). We will see each other a lot less. His weeks off are nice right now because we can do whatever we want. If I am working he will have to be Mr.Mom on his days off, and we wont be able to take mini vacations on his weeks off, but we cannot afford mini vacations right now.
Even tho we got rid of the truck, we are still living paycheck to paycheck, and it sucks. Daycare for all three kids is going to cost about $1,000 a month, give or take some. I will be bringing home an extra $1,000 a month, give or take some, after paying taxes and daycare. That a lot of money and it could really help us. If we could get cars and medical bills payed off I wouldn't have to work. Right now I feel like we need the money. I never wanted to put my kiddos is daycare, but they will only be there for ten days out of the whole month, that's not bad. I really don't know what to do. I think deep down I know I need to take the job. I can always go back to being a stay at home mom, I cant always get a job. I would LOVE to hear some feed back from everyone. I know this is truly MY decision, but it always help to hear what other people think.

Hello long Lost Friends

Well it feels like forever since I last blogged...Here is a little bit of an update on what is going on around here. The cats have gone to a new home. I had a lady contact me about them. She needed a couple cats that would make good mouser cats and good cuddling cats. Well that is my cats, they bring in dead shit and then curl up and want attention!! SOLD!!! Well not really sold only a crazy person would pay for a cat. Now that they are gone, and I hate to admit it, life is a little easier.
Soon Duke will be gone too. He is going to the Rockie Mountain Great Dane Rescue. They contacted us after seeing the dogs ad. After a long conservation with Chris and him admitting he does not want to pick up poop every night we decided to surrender Duke. Why Duke you might ask...Well here is why.. 1. Milo has a relationship with Teagan Duke does not. 2. Duke does really well with other animals, Milo does ok when in a neutral area. 3. We both think Duke will adapt way better than Milo to a new home. 4. Milo has bitten another dog and it would take a lot to get him adopted. Unlike what some of you think this has nothing to do with me liking Milo more, it is simply what is best for our family and kids. Life with one giant dog is so much more manageable than two.
Teagan has been in big boy undies for four days now and he is doing really well. He is DONE with diapers!! YEAH!! Now if only the sister were ready.
I have not blogged in a long time because I have been on the fence about a few things. I have gotten in trouble with one of chris's brothers just for saying his name in a blog (notice no name is used here)! I didn't even say anything bad about him, just his name. Now I am ostracised from the brothers. They wont even be my friends on facebook, and neither acknowledges the girls birthday. It makes it hard to write honestly when people are so harsh, but after some thinking I have decided this is what I do... I like to Blog...So I am going to.
Chris's brothers are still not talking to me...well whats new there. When I piss then off, our family becomes the odd man out, no one talks to us, or they talk to us on a limited basis. This makes the up coming Holidays hard. I really want to spend one holiday with Chris's family. This is the first time he has a whole week off for Thanksgiving and Christmas instead of one day. It is hard to want to drive hours and hours to hang out with people who wont speak to me, and don't acknowledge our kids birthday. I know I am being blamed for the late invite they got to the birthday party, but they should talk to Chris about that. How can I invite you when you don't speak to me, and you cant even be my friend on Facebook?? I left it up to Chris to invite them, I reminded him every couple days to do it. He did it on his own time, it had nothing to do with me. Altho I say this I know no some people will not believe it. I find it funny how to your face and in public everyone acts like everything is great, but the second you turn around they have plenty to say about you. I think we are going to Pueblo for Thanksgiving, I just wish everyone could get along and be honest so it wont have to be a painfully uncomfortable situation.
Chris and I hiked Mt.Garfield it is a 4mile round trip hike with an elevation climb of 2,000ft.  We got lost and ended up doing 5 Miles round trip. We had so much fun, getting lost was half the fun. We did some rock climbing, navigating, and problem solving to find our way back. Mt.Garfield looks over the whole grand valley, and the view from the top is AMAZING!!! Chris and I want to find more hikes to do together.
And last but not least....I need my own reality show!! Why??? Watch for my next blog. Now that I have decided to Blog and not hold back I plan to write on a more constance basis. So watch for the next one!!!

Animal Update

Well I decided the cats are going to get a new home, weather I find one for them or I take them to CLAWS an no kill cats shelter in Fruita. Chris was a butt hole about the cats going even tho he insists he was trying to be funny. Here is what he did. He said he was ok with the cats going, he really didn't care. Then he looked at Teagan and said "Teagan how sad are you going to be when mommy get rid of your kitties?" and "How sad will your sisters be when mommy gets rid of your kitties?" That was a shitty thing to do, but he swears he was joking, and Chris doesn't always think about what he is saying. I don't want to get rid of any animals but me and my family come first. I am loosing sleep having an allergie attack every night. Now that I have three kids my tolerance level has gone way down. I am over being tired because I have pets I am allergic to. I cannot even pet them.
Chris and I decided the dogs must go to. I found fresh pee spots in the house two out of the last three nights. Remember theis are big dogs so when they pee in the house it is a HUGE spot. That smell never comes out and once they can smell it they will keep doing it because they are male dogs. They are doing it at night so I cannot punish them in the morning, I don't know which one is doing it.  They are not doing it because they aren't getting let out in time. Both spots are almost dry when I find them around 8am. To me that means they are doing it during the night because they can. I asked Chris if he had any ideas on what to do. I said we could make them stay out at night, but they would bark so we would have to put bark collars on them, plus come winter I don't know how we would keep them warm as they have destroyed any bed we have ever put in the garage for them. We decided to sell the dogs  because we want to make sure that someone really wants them and can afford to feed them. We don't want someone to be like "oh free great Dane cool I want one" Just because they can. We are also selling them because we have put a ton of money into the dogs, our carpets are going to need to be professionally cleaned or replaced, so if we can sell them to help pay for this why wouldn't we?.. It came to my attention this morning that some people are upset by our choice, but it is our choice. It is not easy for us to do, but the dogs are pets. Our family comes first and when they start destroying the house making it unsanitary and disgusting they have to go. THE END, either be supportive in this hard time or don't say anything. If you have concerns call us. Chris and I made this decision TOGETHER i did not tie him up, hold a gun to his head ect....please just be understanding and supportive. We love our animals and this was a very hard decision for both of us.

The Animals MUST GO!!!

Ok Not only do I have three kids under three, but I also have two dogs who weigh more than me and two cats, oh and a Caterpillar named Mr.Pee but his is in a cocoon and maintenance free.
Here is why the dogs must go....
1. They cannot be left alone over night. Even if someone come over and feeds them and lets them in for the night it stresses them out being left alone and they mess in the house. It is way to expensive to board them, and because they are so big it can be hard to take them places with us. When i was in Georgia they messed in the house a lot. I rented a carpet cleaner and cleaned all the carpets, but i swear I can still smell dog pee. Once that smell gets in the carpet pad there inst much you can do.
2. They cannot sleep out side. milo expically cannot sleep out side he will bark all night. If they could sleep out side I would have to worry about them being alone, if they got the shits from being stressed they are out side.
3. They got the taste of people food, now I cant keep them out of it. They get in the trash, and take food off the counter tops when we arent looking. They didnt use to do this, its a new thing.
4. I refuse to be their only care taker, chris needs to help with them. He pick up poop once a week, that's not enough. I cannot remember the last time they had a bath. I don't have time to do all of this. I take care of the kids and i work 10hours a week out side the house.
5. Because they don't get baths enough, and poop doesn't get picked up enough they smell, and our yard dies. I hate the pet hair, it gets every were, and the house smells like dog all the time. I hate it. I like to have a nice house but I feel like I never will because I have pets.
6. They get slobber every were. The walls the T.V. It drives me nuts.

The cats must go because......
1. I am allergic to them, I cannot even sleep in my bed with out having an allergies / asthma attack.
2. Our cat Frodo is an ass hole. He likes to sleep in our bed, he cannot sleep at my head because of my allergies so after pushing him away a million times he settles for the foot of the bed. Sounds ok right?? Except if you move your feet he hisses and bites you. Not only does this hurt but I get welts because I am allergic.
3. Fuzz is a sweet cat but he has long hair which requires maintness. i cannot brush him, well I could if I want to die from an asthma attack. So he and frodo get hair every were and I cannot stand it because I hate pet hair plus I am allergic to it.
4. They bring bugs, birds, mice, ect in the house. Enough said.

I am tired of my pets running my house and life. They don't get the attention they need, i don't pet any of them because of allergies. Chris doesn't give them much attention, heck he doesn't even give them a bath. I am so tired of having animals...I know Chris would kill me if I wanted to get rid of them. I like having a nice clean, nonsmelly house. I get embarrassed of our house now because of the animals. What to do?? Any ideas????

My Georgia adventure

What an adventure I had!!! Ok so I left for Denver Sunday to do some work and hang out with friends. I got back to my grandmas house on Tuesday to find my computer had gotten a virus....I took it to Office Depo and they said they could fix it and thank GOD save everything off my hard drive. After this I will be buying an external hard drive to keep a back up of everything on.
Well we leave for the airport Wednesday morning, Mom and Terry say our flight leaves at 12:30pm, so we get to the airport around 10am. We as in me, grandma Patsy, me Mom Vickie, Step Dad Terry, and the girls. Well we park the car, get one the shuttle, get to the check in counter and Grandma patsy doesn't have her I.D. Luckily they just flag her ticket and she has to basically get a cavity search, but she makes it. While waiting for her Terry looks at our boarding pass and the plane really leaves at 11:30am not 12:30am. It is now 11am and the flight is boarding. AHHHH!!! I take the girls and run to the tram to get to the right terminal and get in line to get them McDonalds. While in line I hear "final boarding for flight to Atlanta, all passengers must be on board" AHHHHHH!!!! So me and the girls run to the gate, only to find mom and terry are off looking for me. What a cluster fuck!! Needless to say we made it. We got to Atlanta, got our minivan and off we went. We get to our hotel in Columbus, GA get checked in and off to bed so we can go to the "Turning Blue" Ceremony at the base.

The next morning we are off to the ceremony, well everyone but Grandma Patsy, she has no I.D to get on the base. We arrive at the guard shack, we ask directions and the nice man says "turn left" what does Terry do, turns right!! LOL Not only does he turn right but he also does a burn out., in the mini van may I remind you. LMAO!!! At this point I am laughing so hard I am crying. The ceremony was amazing, I cried, my little brother is defiantly a man now! It was amazing to see him. Oh and at the ceremony I try to take a picture only to realize the screen on my camera has water IN it. Yep first the computer and now the camera.... After this we go get lunch and have a relaxing day. I just want to tell you Columbus, GA is one of the most beautiful places I have ever been, and the people are so friendly. It is hard to describe the feeling. It was like there was something in the air. It felt like there was so much flavor there, in Grand Junction there is only flavor if you are a crack head.

The next day was graduation, and that was AMAZING!! At the back of the graduation field was a hill and all the sudden we heard bombs and gunshots then smoke, all the sudden a infantry team appears over the hill, in full gear. They come twards the stands like they are at war. I got chills, it was Awesome. At Graduation I took this great picture of me, only to realize there is a weirdo in the background deep troughting his fingers..(see picture # 2) Graduation ended, we had lunch and headed to Atlanta. That night we rode the MERTA, Atlantis train system. Mom and I made us all get off in an "interesting" part of town. Ned less to say Terry and Grandma Patsy were not up for an adventure and made us get back on. That night we had some dinner, took the girls swimming, and hung out.

The next day we went downtown Atlanta did the Aquarium, and the World of Coke tour. The girls LOVED the aquarium, it was so cute to watch them chase the fish. We went back to the hotel, Grandma took the girls up to the room for dinner. I got to sit and have a nice birthday dinner with my mom and terry. Mom and I also got to have a bottle of wine, then we went to the airport to buy a candy bar and feminine needs. This was fun me and mom a little lit from wine running around the airport, doing the robot to live piano music, and making fun of people. Now you know were I get my weirdness!!! We get back to the hotel and deliver Terry his candy bar, after he ignored me bird calling him. LOL Then my mom and I sat in the sports bar area and had a nice long chat. It was nice to just hang out with her, no kidds.
The next day it was back to the airport to come home. We got our flight time right, hung out, had breakfast, all was going well this time around. Until we get to Denver and I realize I cannot find my car keys. Yep my car is currently parked at the airport. We had to take a buss to a shuttle to get back to grandma patsy's, were mom and terry were parked. We got in to Denver at 12:30pm we did not get to Grandma Patsy's until 5pm. Then mom and Terry still had to drive home. i fucked up big time.!! I still have no clue were my keys are other than somewhere in Georgia. Luckily I have a spare that Brandy overnighted to me and as long as it starts my car I am in luck!! While writing that I got this sick feeling that key is for our old 4-runner.....o-shit.
i guess my trip isn't over yet.....hopefully I make it home tomorrow.........

Updates on life as I know it....

So much has happened since my last blog, here are all my updates
Here is my update on my crazy neighbors, if you missed my first two blogs you can find them here...fucking-crazy-neighbor.html, and.....crazy-neighbors-crazy-night.html
I am pretty sure my crazy neighbors husband is a pervo. The other day me and the kids has just gotten done swimming and we were laying on the patio warming up. I look up and they are flooding my patio again, so I say something to Teagan, because I have no one els to say something to, and the next thing I know crazy neighbor husbands head is over the fence trying to talk to me about it as I lay in my bikini. AHHH....He says it floods because my house is in a hole. I told him I was done talking about it, and he stood there for a couple minutes. I finally had to go inside and wait for him to get down. Weird right?? He was just staring at us.....PERVO!!!
Ok now on to our money issues if you missed that blog it is here....not-easy-to-share.html
We have some good news finally. We traded the truck and got a Jeep. A pretty nice jeep too, a 2004 Jeep Wrangler. It fits all three kids and better yet cut the payments in half. We paid $400 a month for the truck and the jeep is $236 a month. It sounds like we have someone from Pueblo coming to buy the camper tomorrow. Hopefully we can just figure out something with the Sequoia and we will be way better off. My guts are still a mess from all the stress, but with some tenderness and sleep I will be better. Altho we got the truck traded I would NEVER recommend anyone go to Carvill Auto Mart EVER!!!! It took forever to make our deal, like a week and a half, they didn't put the spair in or buff the headlights, we have to make an appointment to go that, and, AND they dropped it off at our house on empty. Literally the gas light was on! WTF!!!
Well that about it for now, oh one more thing. THANK YOU!!! We have had so much support from my family and our friends. It is amazing how many people have been or are in the same situation as us, and it is so nice to have so much support. THANK YOU ALL!!!!!

My Xingular review

Ok I want everyone to keep in mind this is my personal review and opinion. Ok with that said.....here it is......
There is a product out there that is blowing up right now it is called Xingular. It is a weight loss pill, well not just pill. You can get a powder form to mix it water. They have other items, but I have not go that far into it. I was recently given a sample of Xingular and I have to admit at first I was a little offended, because what is a weight loss supplement going to do for me?? I currently weight between 110lb and 115lb, I do not need to loose weight. After talking to the people who gave it to me I understood it can be used as a prework out supplement. So I thought well I will try it..so I did. I took one Xingular pill when I got up, then I ate my breakfast about 20min later. This is what I was instructed to do. Well once it kicked in I thought I was going crazy!! LOL My mind was racing and I was so jittery. Luckily I was on the way to the gym to burn off this crazy (not in a good way energy). I got to the gym and I must admit I had the best run. I ran 6miles in 52 minutes, which is a 8min 40sec mile pace. AWESOME!!! Xingular defiantly gave me the energy I needed to have a great work out. Al tho this is a good thing I have some concerns. First I feel like Xingular would be a crutch, like with out it I could not have a great work out. I want to know when I end my run that I did it, because of my will power not because of a pill I took. Second I got to looking at how much caffeine Xingular had in it 90mg HOLY SHIT!! That is more than an energy drink. I know, I know it is all natural, but so is the caffeine in an energy drink. Being all natural does not necessarily mean it is healthy. Now think about this, how many people do you know cannot function with out coffee, or soda, well it is because of the caffeine. There are many people out there addicted to caffeine in some form. What happens when you take Xingular for a week straight and then miss a day, you are going to feel like shit from caffeine withdrawal. I don't drink a lot a caffeine so I think it was kind a shock to my body when I took the Xingular.The makes of Xing are smart, with that much caffeine no one will be able to get off the Xing with out going through withdrawals. So they are more likely to just keep taking it, meaning constant income!! Smart!! Third it suppresses your appetite, which is great if you remember to eat! LOL I am busy That day I went to the gym and ran, and then I work from 1pm to 10pm. I didn't remember to eat until 4pm because I didn't get hungry. That is not a good thing after running 6 miles. I know that this is a personal responsibility issue, but I am busy and never take time for my self. I need my stomach to growl and ask to be fed!! lol Al tho this pills work for some people, and the weight loss has been proven, it is defiantly not for me. Do I want another awesome run time, HELL YES, but this time I want to know I did it because I trained hard not because I took a magic pill.
P.S please remember this is just my experience, if you love Xing that is great it just isn't for me.